Starting a new life

There are times in my life when I'm not sure what I want to do. When I'm just terrified of things..tests, crowds, expressing my opinion to anyone who knows me. Breaking up with who I thought was the love of my life. The first start of a new life. Taking a job in Shawnee and preparing to go to Germany in the summer. Experiencing things i never thought I could. No remorse for sleeping with Jarrod, No feelings of jealousy for the girl he dumped me to sleep with. I feel free for a change. Ready to start my life. Get my license, Get a job. Have a way out from the monotonous life I've been living. I'm ready to grow up..just a little that is