It's my party...and I'll celebrate the dead if i want to

....ok, so it wasn't my party, and it wasn't a true day of the dead party... however there were sugar skulls and there was an alter. Next year, I believe I shall celebrate it in all actuality, as a traditional person of my heritage should.

Viva Las Vegas!!!

So, it's been awhile since I've blogged. I got a new boyfriend, who treats me better than Jarrod ever even tried to. I'm getting extremely close to him...oh, and I know what you're thinking...the name of this: no, I did not get married. I did however, take a random trip with him to Las Vegas, ,just because we could..making my list of places to visit just that much smaller. We only stayed for the day, going out for dinner and a little gambling. It would have been nice to stay longer but for now, my adventuring days are now growing. Hopefully I can pick back up on my list

the baker is not in me..

I have made 3 bread attempts thus far, mostly all have been bad. I did however get banana bread to be kick ass.

It's the end of the world as we know it....

Ok, so not really but the post apocalyptic world is so much fun to think of, and I'm not the only one of my friends who agree. Several took to even throwing an annual apocalypse party. Last year, I was unable to make it. This year, I went as Katniss Everdeen, if you don't know who that is yet, just wait...you will. The location of this party was in an old rundown barn...mostly the people who showed up are people who dress up in my wonderful sca society.. It was a lovely night full of radioactive walls, brain punch, the antichrist...and cake. what more is there to ask for...oh yea, pictures...there were plenty of those.

Zombies Zombies Zombies...my love for them just grows and grows

Will you be my friend?...

Since Jarrod moved away, it seems that I have had the need for more friends in this area. I never realized how long it takes to go from acquaintance to a friend, or coworker to friend for that matter. Several months of working at target has finally made me realize that I have accomplished it though. I love meeting people; as a result, I know a lot of people.
Several of them I consider close friends, many of them change throughout time. However, I have found that I attract the gays like glitter, and like glitter...they stick.
My best friends are of the male gender, but they talk of boys as much as I do. I'm not a fag hag, I'm not prejudice. I happen to have several friends whom i consider the best in the world. I wouldn't trade them for anything. Even the new ones.

It seems I've been slowly alienating myself from people as of late and I need to make a habit of not doing that because apparently there have been quite a few phone calls that I just don't answer

One flew over the cukoos nest...

It took me until today to finish this book, and I still am not sure I like it. I'm going to re watch the movie next, but from what I remember the contradictory are too massive to actually compare the two. The Indian's story was not bad but his view on the entire thing was more serious than I expected. The comedy movie of this show did not give me the right mindset to enjoy this book. Hopefully after re watching it. I'll appreciate it more. We shall see.. No, all in all. The book was much better than I originally thought. I just wasn't in the mindset for it at the time

the adult take on bobbing for apples is what?....

Sticking your head in a bucket of ice water full of miniature bottles of alcohol. Who thinks this is a good idea? I'm not quite sure and yet, this has been on my list of things to do for longer than I remember. Last weekend I actually participated in it. While going through my "bucket list" as people love to call it, I came across it...well here I am

that's me participating instead of just watching,



Achievement Gained!! One more thing to mark off the list! :) Miniature bottles of alcohol yay!

Volunteer my time..

I always seem to volunteer my time but never to anything I feel has meaning. This week I'm going to be donating my time at work with the salvation army doing activities and helping feed children while Target lets them go shopping, on them. I'll let you know tomorrow how it goes and if this feels like I actually volunteered my time.

It seemed that this time my volunteer work made me feel more like a babysitter than anything else. Maybe next time

so...why not try?

For the longest time I've wanted to try to draw a self portrait, however, due to my lack of skill I've always "put it off, until I can do better", there is no doing better so why not start off now..the photo I have chosen is this one

I'm not quite sure I can pull this off but damn it I wanna try so here goes my attempt at drawing myself...

so the process starts, not looking so great so far but i guess it could be worste
i seem to have lost this so this shall be my self portrait. hmm, wonderful

and it's banjos and bluegrass for you my friend....

I did it, I backed out about twenty times and changed my mind and ended up moving and yet I still took off work and went to the woody Guthrie folk music festival this year just to say I have, and I must say that I will probably go again.
I met several great people there, and listened to some very talented musicians. Had songs personally sang to me, and camped with a band that "can't find our damn Indian." all in all it was great fun.

the partying at the campsite with all the musicians and later the partying in the hotel. Meeting several people with "fiddles" instead of violins was a nice change.

Later, I shall post more for now I'll just add photos

Ramen Noodles for a week....

Once upon a time, I realized I'm not a huge fan of ramen noodles. So I decided to see if I could live a week off of them. I know, I know, why do this to yourself "it's unhealthy'; "you will get sick of them". maybe so, however I put it on my list of a million things to do, and now that I got an apartment with a hermit roommate, Spur of the moment and being broke. I have decided that next week will be the perfect time to try this week long ramen binge. Only thanks to the world wide web there are now Ramen recipes to try so I don't completely lose all my nutrition I'm going to start my week long meal plan of the cheapest food ever.

Since we are just moving I know I'll have to buy everything on this list. Hopefully I can keep it under $50.

Its just a Jump to the Left...

Saturday night I attended my first Rocky Horror Big Bang show. I was very tired after having worked 8 hrs before hand, but once getting there that just disappeared and turned into excitement. I saw a friend I hadn't seen in forever, met some new people. Took several pictures and laughed my ass off on there take of the show. So here we have some of my favorite memories from the night I spent with great friends, good beer, and transvestites.... and all around just a great time

It's craft time!!!!

so It started out as this.... A $7 bridesmaid dress picked up at the Salvation Army. The day of the Zombie prom...in all honesty it was a little too big up top but fiteverywhere else. I just safety pinned it to my bra to keep it up. Also I hacked and Slashed...lol took a pair of scissors and ripped through the dress in variousplaces so the tool underneath was showing and also I took twigs and leaves and feathers from outside, as well as my handy glue gun and placed them within a few of the cuts, lastly..I took it outside..put it on a stand, sprayed it with fake blood and threw dirt everywhere on it...I must say the end result was worth it

My dress was a smash at the zombie prom

It's a zombie PRoM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This by far was one of my favorite parties EVER!!!!!! The people I met were much more my style than I ever would have imagined. Getting there late and leaving early was a tad upsetting but getting to see everyone's wonderful costumes and dancing to awful music.. Not to mention the photo OPs .Totally worth it.

I spent most of my Sa

turday working on getting my costume ready for t

he party so I wasn'

t able to make it to the actual sooner con, oh well- perhaps I can change that next year. The dj was atrocious, I couldn't get anyone to take pictures with me at th

e photo screen but then again, I didn't have much t

ime to... Getting my license is definitely the new priority so I don't have to leave early everytime that Jack and Sara have a disagreement. The $7 dress was well worth the money spent, and being able to hang around with fellow nerds makes you glad you are yourself.

also this last photo here is by far my favorite taken the entire night

Mazey Podge

Once upon a time, I was obsessed with a chat-server callled paltalk. There was a particular conversation room in which I would go to where I'd occasionally meet one or two new people. One of the people I met was a girl from Australia who was a collector of bizarre toys. She taught me of the joyous "TEDDY SCARES".

Teddy Scares are zombie teddy bears. How awesome is that?! i thought it was awesome. There are several in the 3 series set. My favorite as of late is known as Mazey Podge.

Each bear has it's own history. She was pieced together and no one quite knows from where. She died looking into the mirror. She I have decided is my new Halloween project. Slowly but surely, I'm planning and determining how to go about making this costume. It is now On my list of a million things to do.

Once I have a camera again, I shall show of my progress. As of now. I have found the flower material for the sleeve started on felt the heart logo on the vest( I'm embroidering it to look as close to that as possible) and I have an old pillowcase for the vest. It's times like these I wish I had my camera still..I could explain more, Oh, well here goes another costume challenge...

it's time to start over. I have absolutely none of the material now and I'm also in care of a toddler who drastically decrees my spare time. It's time to try try again

typing typing typing...

In this wonderful age of computers it is an essential. Having a high WPM helps land numerous jobs..on average I'm just slightly higher than the average typer. However, after finding a wonderful site called "typingtest.com" I have slowly become more and more comfortable at my typing skills. I'm still working on improving them but that seems to be an ever going battle. For now, I'd like everyone to know I'm trying. I really am, I'm trying...or I was until life happened. It seems the things I used to value in life are continuously changing.

Taking care of myself

It seems that every time I start something obstacles get in my way, or I decide I miss junk food. I primarily blame Jarrod. His eating habits make me miss my old ones. I eat too unhealthy yesterday...what with malt o meal and turkey burgers, corn on the cob,sweet potato fries...it just seems for every one day I eat healthy I have a second day in which i eat horrible, and every one day I exercise I have a second day I do nothing and eat everything. Several months back I started a diet, joined my fitness pal and have been logging my exercise, when I remember that generally a good week. However, remembering to do so is tiring. I believe that it's time to try harder. Get in shape, be proud of myself. It's my body. I should love it. I should eat better, adorn it...treat it as a temple as they say...Here's hoping

Maybe one day, i shall actually enjoy my body. I need to join the gym, and work out more. I need to take my vitamins, and not be so lazy.

Jarrod is no longer in the picture. I miss him, I still get a feeling of sorrow when I think about not being around him anymore but I have a new guy, one that actually wants to spend time with me, and help me get in shape. He says he wants me to be happy and I'm hoping for his sake i can be

Relief!

After almost a year, I finally have a job! That has been my biggest concern lately. Not having a job, having nothing to do. Knowing that I have been a sponge to my friends the last few months.

So, I now work at Target, and personally, my family has never really shopped at Target, so I wasn't sure what to expect.The general happy demeanor and kindness was definitely not to be expected. I'm working in the produce section and I've never done that before, however, I do have my food handlers card and worked in fast food. Surely, other than the hairnet..this wont be too bad.Here's too hoping. At least I have a paycheck now, and am closer to saving up to get a place of my own and start my life over better.

It's fun to look back and think. I loved working in the produce section and I loved the friends I made there, when I transferred to a store that didn't have one I hated target, the difference between the store in this town and the one in that made me want to scream. I called in several times before I actually just quit. I couldn't take it anymore. Now I have no job again and I'm amazed at how much I actually work with a child in my possession now. It's wonderful to have a purpose in life

Oh, Dexter how I love thee!

There is something about the serial killer with morals that just makes you feel sorry for him, and love him. Laugh at his take on the outside world.

When I first started watching the series I was extremely hooked. Even with my lack of interest in blood the entire plot grabbed me. His outsider persona enticed me. After seeing that the show was based off a book. I quickly made it a point to read the book, and I did.

Generally, after reading a book, the movie pails in comparison. With Dexter though I watched first so reading the story. I was able to note the differences and realize that I love both equally. Each was its own story with the same characters. It reminded me very much of a "choose your own story" book that you would read as a child. "...if you want him to do this go to page _" and so forth.

The small differences in the physical aspects of the people were nothing as to the confusion Dexter had within himself, wondering if he were truly the murderer. His sister suspecting him of the murder, and LaGuerta being murdered

I didn't know what I expected when I decided to read the novel, but I do know I got so much more. It is definitely on my top 10 must read lists

I absolutely love living in a fantasy world

It's the battle of the burger!!!

And why?, might you ask, is this on my list of a million things to do? Why not.. going to a burger competition can be just as fun as going anywhere else.
I'm not always overly fond of burgers but the 5 I tried actually turned out great and I got a free coozie and cup. can't really ask for more now can I? oh, wait...live music. Inflatable slide and my favorite diner ever in competition.Yes, life is good.

Battle of the burger was a fun competition overall and I enjoyed going around watching the people judge and talking to the cooks

It's a tad depressing...

Applying for jobs is never fun, applying for a job you love, even though you know the pay will suck, is a bit saddening as well.

Applying for jobs in which you never get called back due to lack of experience is the worst part of the entire thing.

I finally went to interviews for daycare part time jobs. I really want to work with kids. I love them so much. I still don't believe I want one of my own, however, having a job i would love to go to everyday would be a dream. I believe that I shall continue to try. This not having a job is effecting me more than I thought it would. I want a life again. One that doesn't involve me bumming off of people.

I have a kid of my own now, he may not be biological but he is mine, and now not having a job, i still have a purpose and a reason for doing the most awesome things ever. Being a mom has it's perks, even with his temper tantrums and child development classes, I'm learning everyday.

Let's go for a walk.

To get my life off my mind, I have been taking several walks, looking for jobs, just going out, thinking, trying to get back in shape, attending music festivals, it's great knowing that just being outdoors for 10 minutes cheers me up immensely. I average about a mile walk a day now, but occasionally it will go up to 5 or 6 miles walking. The weather is great for it at the moment and I don't feel near as run down as I used to. I'm more alive, more awake, more appreciative of nature and my wonderful surroundings. Putting one foot in front of another is generally a metaphor for moving on with your life. I'm doing that, figuratively and literally with my life right now and it's causing me wonderful senses of relief. If I can gather my dream job, even though it pays crap, I will be 10 times more. I will be in heaven :)

Walking is still a wonderful pastime and me and Dresdyn still walk at least a mile everyday. It's not much and it takes us over 2 hours since he can't quite walk yet but we manage and i always feel better afterwards

it's time to clean :)

meh, cleaning out the inbox daily seems to be something that I cannot get the handle of. I wonder if one day I ever will. I did however finally have the inbox at zero. I find it easier to check when I'm looking for a job. Now that I'm not looking for a job, it's much easier to watch my baby

Groovy...

I have never seen so many congregated hippies in my life, There were Hackie Sacks, Kites, Hula Hoops, Sidewalk Chalk, Live Music, and Jugglers. Also lots and lots of tye dye . The thing I liked most about Groovefest was it was a humans right festival. The vendors were all very nice, and I walked away with two buttons. ..which are awesome. I'll post pictures once i figure out how to send them from my cellphone.

The very first band was by far the best band I heard today. They were called "THE WORK WEEK". Awesome tune, and even with all there mess ups they rocked the show. I ended up with several flyers and cards and a surprisingly disappointing indian taco, oh well, can't win them all.

Well...I went to my 2nd Groovefest, this time bringing a handful of other friends along. We made a picnic, had cake, threw around a frisbee, and played a random board game. There music was not as much to my taste this year as was last times but it was a great day in the park with wonderful friends

I'm bleeding!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally got brave enough. Well, I finally got talked into getting brave enough and went to the American Blood Institute and donated blood.

Being terrified of needles, I did sort of freak out a bit as I was sitting in the recliner and they couldn't stick Sara. But after the needle was stuck in me, as long as I didn't look at the blood being taken from my body I was good.

Usually you get a Tshirt, but I decided to donate to the lymphoma charity instead. Two good deeds today down :)

Mulberries EVERYWHERE...

So, at my house. I have learned that I am in possession of three Mulberry Trees. Seeing as how there are so many. I have decided to try several recipes for them. After I have accomplished one I then shall let you know how it went.

For now, seeing as how none are ripe yet. I'm going to list the recipes that I'd like to try( most of which can be found at http://www.botanical.com/botanical/mgmh/m/mulcom62.html :

Mulberry Wine On each gallon of ripe Mulberries, pour 1 gallon of boiling water and let them stand for 2 days. Then squeeze all through a hair sieve or bag. Wash out the tub or jar and return the liquor to it, put in the sugar at the rate of 3 lb. to each gallon of the liquor; stir up until quite dissolved, then put the liquor into a cask. Let the cask be raised a little on one side until fermentation ceases, then bung down. If the liquor be clear, it may be bottled in 4 months' time. Into each bottle put 1 clove and a small lump of sugar and the bottles should be kept in a moderate temperature. The wine may be used in a year from time of bottling. Mulberry Jam Unless very ripe Mulberries are used, the jam will have an acid taste. Put 1 lb. of Mulberries in a jar and stand it in a pan of water on the fire till the juice is extracted. Strain them and put the juice into a preserving pan with 3 lb. of sugar. Boil it and remove the scum and put in 3 lb. of very ripe Mulberries and let them stand in the syrup until thoroughly warm, then set the pan back on the fire and boil them very gently for a short time, stirring all the time and taking care not to break the fruit. Then take the pan off and let them stand in the syrup all night. Put the pan on the fire again in the morning and boil again gently till stiff. ..ok so far haven't found many, I'm working on it

Ick Taxes

...So, doing your own taxes is not near as hard as people want you to think it is. Especially thanks to turbo tax. Many people like to think that it's a big deal. I thought it would be a big deal. It's not

I believe..

So, I finally told my mother that I'm Agnostic this Easter weekend and I was told "you are not allowed to die until you accept God". I must say that it made me sad for my mother. Her knowledge of other religions made me realize that I'm not as lacking in mine as I once thought.

I did read the Satanic bible and did discover that it is my least favorite religion. The views weren't all horrible but the ones that I liked all revolved around the philosophy of Ayn Rand and she happened to come first. Everything they added didn't interest me at all. The whole do what you want brings consequences I believe .

Neo Pagan religions are amazing to me. The fact that all Intertwine. The Gods and Goddesses mingle. The similarities are uncanny. They are interesting reads. The way Odin sacrificed his eye, the way Zues lost his son

I'll write more on this later. Just decided I should at least start on this because it is one of my love topics.

Woot for Music!!!!

So, I debated back and forth with going to the Norman Music Festival and skipping the sca event. I did decide to go out on Friday night, and was very glad I did. Music seems to bring much joy into my life. music of all kinds, and there was a variety of music. Also ran into some friends promoting there "bang bang" show, and helped them promote it. Hopefully I did a good job at that.

My favorite band from that night, although I did miss the mimsie's so i can't judge them was a latin band known as Monte Negro. The bars that were open, the walking down main street with booze. the great company. I think next year I shall enjoy it more because I will choose it over the event, and get the full experience. If I had had my camera I could've had some awesome pictures but seeing as how I no longer have one it kinda makes me sad hearted. That's all for now, my list of things to do in life keeps growing..but my accomplishments do as well.Hopefully, talk to you soon.

Why not?!

So, things don't always work out as planned. One minute your taking a drug test in hopes to get a job and the next, you've screwed yourself over... One day your boyfriend is talking about who you would be his best man and the next you are moving in with your best friend. One day your looking for jobs and the next your moving to Shawnee to help out a friend. Inconsistency seems to be my way of life...and when things start getting to hard I do run away. back home generally to my mother and sunlight and the lake. This time I didn't
I went to Dallas, and annoyed the hell out of one of my best friends. Actually slept with him, Ignored Jarrod. Had a blast. I was thinking earlier that I shouldn't have. I'm not one for casual sex. It HURT LIKE HELL, whenever he told me we could never date. But it was an adventure. I way to learn to try something new..move on with life. Try to start again. I was doing this just last month...it's time to try again right?, eventually life will have meaning

Gotta love real life... :)

I've finally made my first stick comic. :)


LIFE,The Universe, And Masturbation

Bowling...

One of my last nights in Norman, I went out with this couple I know...we went to the museum and we went out to eat. Buffalo Wild Wings...watched UFC. After that we decided to go bowling. I haven't been bowling in years and without my glasses, it was sort of crazy hard. What I thought though would be bad idea, turned out awesome. I bowled a strike the first time round..it just went downhill from there but, I honestly had fun listening to crappy music and watching the teenagers beside us act like fools. My family had never been big on bowling. It just wasn't an activity we actively participated in. So after coming up with this list, and seeing this on here. I'm glad it was and I'm glad I have amazing friends

Starting a new life

There are times in my life when I'm not sure what I want to do. When I'm just terrified of things..tests, crowds, expressing my opinion to anyone who knows me. Breaking up with who I thought was the love of my life. The first start of a new life. Taking a job in Shawnee and preparing to go to Germany in the summer. Experiencing things i never thought I could. No remorse for sleeping with Jarrod, No feelings of jealousy for the girl he dumped me to sleep with. I feel free for a change. Ready to start my life. Get my license, Get a job. Have a way out from the monotonous life I've been living. I'm ready to grow up..just a little that is

But I'm a cheerleader!!!!!!!!!!!

For months I have been putting off watching this movie because I couldn't seem to be interested in it. I happen to have been a cheerleader myself in high school and the "but I'm a cheerleader" phrase automatically threw me for a loop. Never had I actually met a stereotypical cheerleader. That is why I decided to watch this movie.

Today, after Jarrod bought his own computer I finally watched it, and I must say I enjoyed it much more than I had originally thought I would. Lately, I've become more and more aware of my attraction to the opposite sex and having best friends whom are homosexual and bisexual. I feel that this is a very amusing take on a coming to terms with your sexuality movie.

Mostly I didn't know much about this movie when I decided to watch it, only that it was about a cheerleader who learns she's a lesbian. When I saw Clea DuVall in the film, my interest peaked so much more than it had the several other times I'd started the movie. The comedic value in this movie was far exceeding to the expectations I held of it.

"I'm Sinead. I like pain. I'm a homosexual. ", "Women have roles. When you learn this, you'll stop objectifying them.", "It's really easy to be a prude when you're not attracted to him, isn't it?"

This is a very quotable movie that shows both aspects of overacting to the homosexual lifestyle or just accepting that you are part of it. It was definitely worth the watch and I recommend it.

It's craft time!

So I've finally taken the time to learn how to do a viking knit. Isn't it lovely? One of the few things I didn't screw up horrible. Rock on

BANG BANG!

So...after months of saying "I'm going to attend one day". I went and saw Bang Bang last night. which is labeled as a "drag show", simply because it has a lot of homosexuals involved...however it only had one drag queen in it. I loved the live bands, and the dances. Boobzilla as always was her sideshow self and Norman just seemed a little more accepting of her than I would have figured. I loved LOVED LOVED all acts and am glad I could be there to support Katie.

Working class foodies..

I am now in love with working class foodies. They use organic foods on a budget and show you how to cook with them. Really making me wish I had a job and money right now :(

So, I now have a job, and very little money, and working class foodies is now one of my favorite things of all time.

There apple cake is delicious, as well as there potato hash..I'm extremely hopefully that everything else will be just as good

Training the dog...

Just so people know, it's a great idea to have patience when training a dog.that's also something I've always lacked..When Jarrod brought me home a boxer puppy, Given the fact that we currently live in a mobile home. I was a little saddened. The dog is too big to be kept alone. So far though, I'm not sure it was a horrible idea. Kya seems to be adjusting quite well. I on the other hand, am hating the scheduling, and the training. It is nice to see her stay though when I tell her to. Hopefully I can get everything in order, and the training goes well. She seems to know the hand motion for lay and not lay itself though and it takes awhile for sit. those are things I'd like to work on before tricks.

She sat, she stayed, she knew she wasn't allowed her food or going outside without me telling her so, she had horrible separation anxiety and she was left alone for weeks at a time after myself and Jarrod officially broke up. I moved and he gave her away. I miss her. I miss having someone to take care of and something to do. it's sad. But she taught me I was capable of training

...yep, I'm now a lady

Within the Society for Creative Anachronism awards are given to those that have shown worth of said award. The King and Queen must approve and generally depending on who's at said place, they will present them, if they aren't there it goes to the baron and baroness. The Baron and Baroness of Namron decided that I should finally receive mine. And it made me happy :)